Well, first of all, thanks for noticing that I'm sad. Yes I am. But did someone break my heart? I don't know. Maybe? But I think it's just me that think too much. But actually, I got things which is too personal to be shared with anybody. Yeap, TOO PERSONAL. Which means, they can't be shared with anybody just yet. And the last person that I wanted to talk to is unavailable, so yes, that makes me sad. :p
Why you looked so depressed? That is just so not you.
Yeah, I know. Looking so defeated by the situation is just so not me. Honestly, I don't know. Everything felt so out of control lately. I just don't know what to do! Mainly because I really can't do anything and that makes me feel miserable. You know, having that kind of things that you desperately wanted to make it right but are unable to do so because there's no way to it? Yeah, that sucks. A LOT. I am trying. Trying to keep it cool, but it still sucks though. Sometimes when I'm sitting around wondering and without knowing it, I'm frowning over my thought and you caught me. And yeah, I know, I looked miserable. Blep
Why are you avoiding people lately? You don't even stop by to shake hands like you usually do.
Yeah, I know. Lately, almost nobody saw me when I'm going to church, and yeah, I didn't stop by to shake hands and have a little chat. But don't get me wrong, I am not avoiding anybody. I mean, why would I? I miss everybody! Actually, I'm in a rush. I need to get home as soon as I can. Don't ask why, I have my reason.
Yeah right. I saw you in town or etc.
Well, if I'm walking alone, I have business to settle. And if you saw me with company, usually family members, then you got me. That is my business. Even though we looked like shopping, or enjoying our moment, but actually, there are business behind it. No questions, I can't tell what is it because they are TOO PERSONAL and I'm not gonna tell no matter how. Not yet.
You are easily pissed and get easily frustrated!
Ha-ha. Wait, wasn't it was just me? I thought I am easily pissed all this time. LOL. Yet, I get asked a lot about that lately. Maybe because I get pissed over the smallest matter. Hehe... Well, sorry, if I offend you in any way. Maybe I raised my voice, or rolled my eyes, or ignoring you when you are talking, or saying awful things to you, I am very very sorry. I'm not saying that I don't realize that. I know it but that doesn't mean, I meant to hurt you too! I will not beg you too understand me either. Just to let you know, sometimes I just can't control it, or maybe just don't feel like controlling it because it felt like it was the best thing to do that would make me feel better. I know, selfish right? But there are so many things going on in my head. You know, I can't even have a proper laugh! My mood could shift in a split of second! Like I am going crazy. Huhh~ on the edge of depression, hoho.... that sucks. But really, I am not asking like you don't have feelings, but I hope you won't take anything seriously. Seriously, for your sake.
Your tweet are so depressing. Like you were so disappointed with someone.
Well, Ha-ha, you got me. I know, it was that obvious. You know, you usually posted things that sometimes, you hoped that, 'that' someone would saw and understand that it was meant for them. Classic right? It's an old trick but somehow, they just works. At times. Maybe. I think. To catch some attention? Yes, maybe. I mean, yeah! LOL. It's a shame. Blep. Don't tell me. I used to confront the person when I got something concerning them, but you know what? I end up looking needy! Especially when I tried to talk and tell the person something, but they just seem to, you know... act like they just don't care and yeah, I am not satisfied with their feedback! What more if the person suddenly stop replying my text and then the next day saying sorry because this and that, or worse, said that they fell asleep! Okay, you can tell me you fell asleep if we were talking about Vin Diesel or crap, but when I'm talking personal, you don't end up saying sorry to me the next morning because you fell asleep. And then, don't make me feel guilty if I'm mad because its just a small matter to you. To me, they are not small, at all. If it makes me feel bad, NO, they are not okay AT ALL! Anyway, these are not the main thing. They are just some eanie weanie matters that bugged my mind. The main matters, will remain secrets.
And you know what...Don't keep saying that you feel bad just about everything and keep saying sorry, then disappear again! Just do it.! When you said that, you wish you could be there for someone, don't say it. Just be there. Even though you can't be there physically, text more or call. It is counted as being there. I mean, you said that you wanted to be there right? Then act like it. It's better you don't say anything when you can't even prove what you were saying. You will only end up making the person felt even more terrible and distrust you. If you're just saying sorry because you felt terrible that you make a person feel bad, then I tell you, that is a very selfish move. You're not making the person feel better, you're making them feel more miserable. Especially me. "..You're so wrong believe me when you told me you would never leave me by myself, out in the middle of nowhere.."-Selena said. Seriously, don't lie to me. Don't say things that you can't really do or meant or promised me anything just to make me feel better cause that would add my weigh of mind. True facts.
*Wasn't meant to offend. But you know, just so you know.*