So, my life lately had been very epic. In what ways? I just can't explain. Through these months, I've been through a lot of difficult times not to mention all the confusing situation that required me to make decisions precisely. Stories? Yeah... a lot. But sadly, I can't tell it in here. So this time, my post wouldn't be telling advice or giving conclusion for a certain situation like I always did, but instead, I will try to summarize everything and put it into one conclusion.
Lately, my cyber life were kinda dead. I can't fully participate in my facebook social life. What I mean is, I didn't regularly go online like I always did last year so basically, I missed a lot of things. When I go online, there will be a lot of notifications and the least I could do is to like all the mentions, tags and what-so-ever. YouTube? I can't tell. LOL. The only thing that seemed to be living is my Twitter. I activated my mobile Twitter so it followed me wherever I go. Life was freakin' busy that sometimes I felt buried with responsibilities and everything. But yet, truthfully, I enjoyed it all. Just tired but fun.
Anyway, I learned a lot. As always, I like to observe and learn. I don't missed things without having a conclusion and learned morals from it. I might appeared dumb, innocent and immature but actually, I'm evaluating. Socially, I learned that, most people are very shallow. They quickly judge people, selfish, ignorant and basically, longed to be loved. Its funny how we are scared that we are not good enough to mix with certain people while actually, everyone is feeling the same way. Everyone think they are not good enough and tend to isolate themselves while others think that they are ignorant.
I learned that, its very important to watch your words and actions for people are always observing. Whether you realize it or not nor whether you care or not, the community are always there watching you. As the saying goes, "You did hundreds of good things and no one remembers. You did a mistake, everyone remembers it forever". Simple.
If you want people to like you or love for who you are, you must first love them. But if they don't love you back and didn't appreciate you, it's okay. Don't get disappointed. No matter how bad things goes, always be reminded that there's always someone out there who will be there for you. Maybe its your bestfriend? or family members. Maybe we're sad because the one that we love may not love us back but don't let it cause you to be down. People are people and sometimes we make mistake. Don't worry, don't be sad because there is someone out there who's still gonna stay right by your side. Keep on loving with patience no matter how difficult things goes because that's what Jesus had taught. But loving doesn't mean hoping. Never cling on those people who hurt you or else, the pain will follow.
Next, never thought that you've known someone well especially when you've just known them for days or months. Every single person are different inside and we can never guess what they are actually thinking. That's why, be careful on who you are trusting. Mum once had said to me, "Never trusted anyone because you can't even trust yourself". True enough. Sometimes, we even break our own words how can we expect that others won't break their words to us?
Also, don't think too much. If you kept on thinking, am I good enough? Can I do this? Will they hate me? Do they hate me?? What could they thought of me? Just! Ignore these voices in your head! Do what you wanna do and be yourself. If you pay attention to these voices, you'll end up faking and eventually, you'll miss a lot of things. Great things happens when you finally accept yourself and be yourself. The important thing is, you know that what you are doing is right and if people still hate you, then they might be jealous at you or you are doing wrong without realizing it. Correct yourself by asking for opinion of yourself and advice from people whom you knew are full of wisdom and can be trusted.
Next, don't stay with people who don't appreciate you or hurt you. That's if you want to live happily. I'm not saying, HATE THEM, just act naturally but don't put them into your list. Remember, in life, what matters most is dignity. If they cause you to be down or ashamed, then leave. If you felt that you are not respected, then change your way. Bear this in mind, "FOR THINGS TO CHANGE I MUST CHANGE FIRST". Learn from your mistake and don't repeat it again. Don't be selfish in your ways of making decisions and when you act.
And finally, nourish your day everyday with love and hope. Remember, hope is what keeps us alive and love is our food. Love gives us spirit to live everyday. If you're hurt now, relax, just let the memories past. Cause one day when you finally met that someone whom God had prepared for you, you'll be glad that it never worked out with anyone before. Just, Have Faith. :)
Words of strength
Recognize that you are what the world
needs most, give freely of yourself. You were created
with purpose which only you may fulfill. Our
Lord may work in mysterious ways, but
rest assured that you are on a very
sacred path, travelling
in just the right direction for this moment.
Each day will urge you toward
this higher good.