Why We Can't Tell Our Secret?

Saturday, 29 October 2011

Secrets? Hmm... Just by the name of  it, I'm sure everyone must got something rearing in their mind. Right? It's almost impossible that one's got no secrets at all.

Every one of us got secrets that we rather die for than letting them go. But for me? I'm not sure. I think I haven't reach the 'DIE FOR' level for my secrets yet. Maybe I have, few months ago. But it's funny to find out that the most shameful secrets I have had found its own way and finally reached the 1st person on the 'list' that shouldn't know it. I have to admit it is pretty embarrassing. But, what to do, it had happened and here I am, still breathing(Cheer for it). Once, I said to my self, "Gosh, I'm so gonna die if they know this!" and now, to my astonishment, I'm still walking, talking and my friends can still slap my nose!(means I'm still alive).

So what's secret all about and what makes it so hard to let people know it? We have secrets that we let certain people know it but there are also secrets that only ourselves and God know it.

Why? Why? Why?

First reason is because its embarrassing. To us. As we know it, the definition of secret is, things that people shouldn't know and only you know it. And there's many factors that makes it 'forbidden' for it to land on any ears. But this kind reason is actually the smallest 'why'. But we make it the biggest  'Why' for the sake of self pride which is actually people don't really care about.

The second is, it threat our positions. We are often afraid that when people sees the real us or the truth, they might back away. But actually, if those community that revolves around you is revolving for the sake of love, they actually don't care about your flaw. Instead what they were expecting from you is your true self and your love. But if they revolve around you because of your false pretenses, then you really should think of the next step and I wish you Good Luck :)

Third one is because its endangering our lives. Or the lives of our family, or friends, or our lovers such as wife, husband, boyfriend and etc. Depending on the person. As long as its between life and death. Now this, is pretty big. These kind of secrets usually rests on the shoulders of those whose involved and had problems with gangsterism, mafias, assassination and any of those that threat lives. It might sound funny to some us, but its true. There are some unfortunate people out there that has to live with these kind of secrets or else they'll fly to heaven before its time.

Through all of these, think back, is there a secret that you kept from someone that they deserve to know it? I know, 80 to 90 percent of us only kept kind of secrets that's on 'EMBARRASSING' label and these kind of secrets usually deserve to be known by some people(Or should I say, 'stop cheating' by short?).

Do you know that by keeping secrets, you are more likely to gossip? You want to tell at least someone that you are not satisfied with this 'someone' and it was misinterpreted as bad mouthing. Which usually happened.

My advice is, if you have secrets and was on the need to be told but you don't have the gut to do it, ask for advice from people you trusted which you're sure can help you or look for advice from trusted articles(Don't consider those who encouraged you to shot yourself on the head). Like what friends used to say when they couldn't answer our questions, 'Google it'. But! Be careful! There are large variety of articles out there. Find the one you're sure can help.

That's it, Good Luck earthlings!

Crush? Love? Broken Heart?

Friday, 21 October 2011

"It's disgusting, how I love you..God I hate it, I could kill you!" says Kesha. It's very funny that once this song had inspired me so much. What a significant this song can be to a broken heart and a crushing person. This song reminded me a lot of how once a guy had broke my heart so badly. I had a crush on this guy and he just happen to have girl already. I didn't know that for months. But it doesn't really matter since we never even have a real relationship. I randomly saw him even. But one day, this girl just happen to read 'our' chat on facebook and she's pissed(of course). I apologize to her. By the way, all the talk was all 'joke' can't she tell? And she didn't forgive(of course, again). I understand how she feel but she also must understand how I feel about this! I'm not trying to make her accept my apology, hey if I was in her shoe I'd probably hate on me too!

My aunt says, "It's your fault cause you shouldn't be friendly or too friendly with a guy who already had someone, or sublimate in their relationship. But I'm not saying that they don't have fault in this also." True enough, I did have a mistake and well, lesson learned I guess. So what is 'his' fault in this? Well, I bet he can tell that I'm in love with him but he's an ass! And after what happened, no one make a sound! He didn't apologize. Well, why would he? He's an ass after all. I'm not dreaming for it anyway. So me? One might wondered if I did have a second thought to be a lesbian after what happened and I tell you, HAHA, no. I'm not gonna let an ass guy turned my life into total crap.You can tell how embarrassed I was when this happen and how sad I was for her. I know how she feel, seriously. And I'm also glad that she forgive him. She should. Message to her: DON'T LET ANY SLUT STEAL YOU SWEETHEART! And sorry if you think I am one of them but I hope you don't judge me. You don't know me.

But this article is not about ME sharing my past on my crazy farewell of love. What messages I'm trying to pass in this article is that, I want all girls out there to be strong! It doesn't matter on what situation you were. Whether you're on crush, in love or broken hearted, just, BE STRONG!

If you're on crush, you need to stay conscious. Don't be too dreamy about it. I know, what a mess your head is right now but there is also positive side about it? Agree? It gives us inspiration to poet, to sing, makes you strum your guitar until the strings break and make your day lights up! The sight of your crush is a world to you and talking to him is like the most wonderful happening in your life! I know, I know. I've been there too.  When I was in this situation, I admit I dig the web on what to do next! I think I'm screwed! Should I confessed it? Should I just leave it like that? Should I this and that? And most sounds like this, "Go for it girl! Remember, Cinderella doesn't wait for her Prince, she go for it!" and other few tips on 'How To Tell Your Crush' yadda-yadda. I almost convinced by them but my heart believes this, "Just listen to your heart and you'll find the answer". And I did. I just wait and see and now the result is not just too vivid but freaking crazy too. Luckily I did that. Wonder what will happen if I confessed? Haha, I don't know. The result must be even funnier!

If you're in love and was in really good, wonderful relationship. I'd say, stay strong and be like that forever! Maybe your relationship might crack a bit because of some side problem but don't let it ruin your world with him! Unless, he's an ass, then you really should leave him. Hints: if he hurt you more than 3x, you really should leave him. Keep in my mind that "YOU DESERVE BETTER". Never let anyone, ANYBODY mistreat you for your kindness and love.

And for the broken-hearted out there, you're the one who really should stay strong! So, he break your heart? Mistreat you? Cheat on you? And you've been so nice and had loved him with all your heart? I tell you, shame on him. He really should sit around and think about this. "You don't know what you got until it's gone" says Nick Jonas. True enough. A lovers is easy to find but a TRUE lovers may appears once in a lifetime:)

In the nutshell, be strong girls! I know some might believe that all guys are the same and all are a total losers, but have faith. 'If few apples are rotten, doesn't mean all the apples in the basket are rotten'. So, guys, don't mistreat our faith! I agree to Jordin Sparks when she said, "No matter what you said about love, I keep coming back for more" and let's keep on that faith:)

Funny facts about Vin Diesel

Sunday, 16 October 2011

I felt deadly bored staring at these four walls. I thought I was going to pull all my hair off! But then, I wonder around the web and found jokes scattered around about Vin!!! Here are few the best I'd like to share. Most jokes about Vin Diesel because well, I was digging about him before the link I found leads to another and another and another! But mostly I picked about him cause I can't get what the other jokes means. Anyway, if you're interested, just click here.

*In an average living room there are 1,242 objects Vin Diesel could use to kill you, including the room itself.

*Vin Diesel invented the hammer when he was tired of using his forehead to slam nails into wood.

*Only once has Vin Diesel ever cried. The only survivors were a bunch of animals and some dude named Noah.

*Vin Diesel ripped out of all Charlie Brown's hair but left a single strand to remind him one day he'd come back to eat him.

*There is intelligent life in the universe, but they have not contacted Earth because they are avoiding Vin Diesel. They owe him $5.

*Mr. T and Superman once fought each other on a bet. The loser had to start wearing his underwear on the outside of his pants.

*"In elementary school, in case of fire you have to line up quietly in a single file line from smallest to tallest. What is the logic? Do tall people burn slower?"

*When Vin Diesel goes to donate blood, he declines the syringe, and instead requests a hand gun and a bucket.

*The popular video game "Doom" is based loosely around the time Satan borrowed two bucks from Vin Diesel and forgot to pay him back.

*Mr. T hates playing 'Rock Paper Scissors' because he doesn't believe anything could beat rock. He always chooses rock, and when someone throws paper, he says,"I win." If someone is foolish enough to dispute this, he takes his clenched fist and 
punches them in the face, then says, "I thought your paper would protect you."

The Four #1: Clare

Thursday, 13 October 2011

Logging in..... Come on.... I only have for like 2 minutes to send this message to Leela before I get caught for using the computer at this late hour.

Finally I could see my facebook wall. My eyeballs eyeing the monitor, up, 9 notifications. I feel tempted to check them but NO, I can't take the risk! I typed 'Leelawathy' and click her name. Suddenly, "blunnggg". A chat!
Geez.. why now? I thought. I look up and obviously no one notice it. I look at the 'chatter'. Beverly. I intend to ignore. Not important. I thought. I clicked the chat box and leave it, unread. I want to continue my mission and it is to send this message to Leela. But the chat keep on 'blunnnnnnnging' and by now there were 7 chats, and the sound echoed around the living room!

Geez... what is wrong with her? I was furious, nervously slowed down the volume. No, I muted it. I looked up, sharping my sense of hearing. In any minute my dad could caught me and-Hell, who knows what will happen next.

Finally, I've sent the message. Safely pressing the button 'send' and leaned against the hard plastic, chair. I saw the chat. Beverly's. Should I read it? The numbers increasing, 8,9. I was about to log out when a thought struck me, Maybe I should just read it and say goodnight then go offline. I click the chat and it struck me, "Hey, I just chatted with Kent and I mention you!" Followed by, "Hello???? anybody there?" Then, "Geez..where r u?", "testing.....", "1", "2", "3...". Then followed by the last two, "Okay, you're not there so we talked about this tomorrow K...", "Goodnight and have a beautiful nightmare!".

I was dumbstruck! Kent? After a while? Why did this happen now? Why did she talked about him? And why did they even chat? Question by question hit my brain like a drum. I don't know what to think! And suddenly I heard footsteps. That's it, times up! I logged out as fast as I could and shut down the computer immediately. Thousands of excuses running through my mind.

As I head for the stairs, I saw Bridget, my younger sister-youngest, on top. Rubbing her eyes. "Go to sleep Bridget." I said pushing her aside. "Mei-mei..." she called, still rubbing her eyes. "what?" I turned around. "I want to eat curry maggie, cook it for me." she ordered in a soothing voice. "Geez... are you dreaming? It's in the middle of the night!" I declined. "Who cares? I want to eat it and I want it now!" she demanded. "Oh shut up Bridget and go to bed" I said. But she didn't give up and called me again, "Clare!" her voice raised, not too loud. I look back again, "What?" I raised my voice too. "I know what you just did and I'm going to tell mum and dad and you'll be dead by the next morning!" she threatened me. "Oh, yeah? And I'm going to tell them that you've passed you're bedtime too and you won't see the sunrise by the next morning I swear."

But she haven't given up, "Then we both will be dead and why don't we spare each others life?" she said. "And what is that supposed to mean?" I said. "Well, you cook my maggie and I'll let you go online for more minutes or hours if you want..." she try to seduced me. I give her a smirk and said, "And how are you going to do that? By giving mum and dad pills so they won't woke up?". "No, I'll guard the stairs and if they happen to woke up, I'll do my part to give you just enough time to shut down the PC."

"And how would I explain of being downstairs?"

"Well... say that you're drinking water and we'll both pass.."

"and what you would say for being at the stair yourself?"

"Told you, I'll do my part."

I thought for a second, Hmm.. that would do. Besides I do wanna know what Beverly was talking about and cooking the friggin' maggie is not that hard. That'll worth it. By the way, I don't have to worry about getting caught. Bridget? She's a drama queen and the best at bargaining. I bet, she could beat Captain Jack Sparrow with her irresistible bargain. After a moment I agreed and hurried downstairs to complete my part. She waited at the stair to guard.

As I finished, I turned on the computer again as she having her meal. At the stair. As I logged in, I quickly hurried to the online list and unfortunately Beverly is not in the list. I hesitated. I decide to send her a message instead. "What about it?" I wait for her but she didn't get online. Asleep already. Probably. Besides, tomorrow is Monday, the freakiest day of all day.

"Mei-mei... I've finished. So how long you're going to stare at the monitor as I guard the stair for you?" she asked. "No. You don't have to. Have you washed your dishes?" I asked.


"Let's go to bed then."

I logged out and we both hurried upstairs and separated just above to our room.

That night, I couldn't sleep. My hearts pounding hard. I don't know why. Is it because I'm excited to ask Beverly about what she's talking about? No, I feel mad about that. So what? Am I excited because it's Kent. Is that it? I'm excited about him?

Not long, I've fallen asleep with that thought.. I sank deeper..and deeper...


"Mei-mei...Mei-mei... Up.. It's late." I hear Abigail's voice. I don't feel like waking up. But suddenly, "Kent!". That thought made me jumped out of bed. I look at the clock. I was indeed late. I hurried to get ready for school.

By 6.20am, we're still waiting at the bus stop. And obviously, no one was there cause of course, its late. I was a little worried of course but I'm still glad that I have time to think before I actually met Beverly.

My mind started to ponder...

What could she'll be asking later? And what could she had found out last night. About him. About me. Urrghh... I hate this. I imagined her, waiting for me to shot me with riffle's of questions. Geez..I can't imagine that. No, I can. Beverly... she just so...she's so... I don't know why I can't escaped her once she targeted me. Once she suspected you have a secret, she'll make you spill it. She'll tangled you up until you could do nothing but telling her the truth. Lie? I think I can't do that either. I've done that. Many times and she found out! Even as I said it, she'll know whether I'm lying or not on the spot. Its like she have power to read minds! She can even know just by looking that you have something in mind. A secret, a thought of someone. And once she guessed who that someone is, its always right. And when that happens, its hard to deny it. Not in front of her. Actually telling her the truth is not really a problem. She's good at keeping secrets. She just wanna know. I don't know why others life seemed to fascinated her. But she---- That's right! she never told us about anything! She knows our story but we don't know hers! Geez.. how could I never thought of this. Maybe because she's too loud and freggin' cheerful that none of us haven't notice that we, don't know anything about her. Something deeper about her like how she know us. How could...----

"Bus, finally!" Abigail's voice cut my thoughts.


As I entered the class, true, as I imagined. There she was, grinning. flashing a smile that actually freaks me out just like Mondays.


The bells ring. Fortunately.... All the students hurried to the school hall to have an assembly. Having what which makes me hate Monday-duh. I look at her, she was talking with Sherlyn. As they always do everyday. I hope she forgets. I thought.

We walked down the corridor heading for the hall. Suddenly, I felt arms around my shoulder. I knew, its her. As she began to speak, I take a deep breath. "Happy Monday Clare........

To be continued......

The Four#2: Sherlyn's point of view
The Four#3: Beverly's point of view

This story was a total made up. So don't freak out okay :)

Wonderful Unique Arts

Monday, 10 October 2011

There's just so much creative ideas on this planet! Check out these unique wonderful arts! Enjoy!

Escaped From Torture Land

One last look.... finally I'm free!!! Examination is such a torture!  Agree? Only geeks loves them. Me? I'm 50/50(half geek, half naughty), so I can feel the pain!  With examination around the corner, I feel limited to move. Can't do this, can't do that....duh! cause the guilty feelings hounds me the whole time!

Up to the bright side, no exams means freedom. Freedom means more free time, more free time means more activity, more activity means more events, and more events means more crap to stuck inside this blog!
There's just so much thing to do! At least the things that I love..hehe..

The nearest events would be 'girls outing' and that would be the very tomorrow!!! I hope there's nothing lie in the way :)

In the meantime, embrace the moments!!!!

P.S To all Malaysian's 15th's, let's celebrate!!!

Beautiful Faces On The Planet

Sunday, 9 October 2011

Taylor Swift

Selena Gomez

Emma Roberts

Demi Lovato

Megan Fox

Shania Twain

Kristen Kreuk

Vanessa Hudgens

Scarlett Johanson

Adriana Lima

Jessica Alba

Keira Knightly

Naomi Watts

Emilie De Ravin

Miranda Kerr

Clara Alonso

Nozomi Sasaki

Rosie Huntington-Whiteley

Candice Swanepoel

Erin Heatherton

Lindsay Ellingson

Jessica Stam

Penelope Cruz

Eva Green

Sienna Miller

Susan Coffey

Kate Beckinsale

Amy Adams

Elisha Cuthbert

Ashley Tishdale

Charlize Theron

Hayden Panettiere

Angel Locsin

Nia Ramadhani

Rhian Ramos

Christine Hermosa

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