Haha. What makes me happy most is the fact that semester one examination had passed. Can you believe it? Three weeks being mentally brutally tormented, I finally get over it! Hahh~ life as a Form 5 student is totally such a torture.
So, the fact that holidays are here, I am now trapped in a dilemma on what to do with it. Ugh~ I'm kinda sad and frustrated because a lot of plan didn't work out but yeah, there's nothing I could do about it anyway. It's funny when I felt like throwing punches and screamed and maybe felt like crying when what I've been hoping for to have this holiday, none of them worked out. But still, I can never change God's will. I know I shouldn't blame anybody anyway for any failure in anything. Been thinking about working out new plans though to make this holiday bloom! Oh-yeahhh.
I just hope that I can find courage to reconnect with people and lighten up a bit my cyber life considering that they were almost dead because I'm too busy with school.
And oh! Just now, I had a short nap over frustration and guess what! I had a dream... and it teaches me something! The details are private, but the messages are like this, "Never let your own selfish wills exceeds your love". To elaborate, it tells me that I shouldn't let my frustrations over the smallest things ruin everything. Just because I felt unsatisfied, I started to blame and forgotten all the blessings that God had given me. Those blessings where He had given chances to know and be connected to such an unusually nice friend, and sweet as well as caring in his own ways. :) There might be more awesome people out there, but I do believe that none of them have the same characters as he does. God also had blessed me with chances to live memories that I will not have with other people other than this one friend of mine. So what can be more incredible than that? So, I woke up, filled with feelings of forgiveness, love and a new awareness! What an another beautiful blessing!
The best feelings is when you
realize your blessings :)